It's called SPRING BREAK!

Heck yes.. I survived!! I've never been so happy before! This quarter has been so draining on me. I hate to use my medical problems as an excuse for my lack of attention.. but I am. This past week I got my results back. I really would like to know what the dr thinks because I am definitely not a textbook case. By clinical presentation, I would say cushings. By one lab, I would say adult-onset congenital adrenal hyperplasia, by looking at all the labs I'm thinking an adrogen secreting tumor. But only an endocrinologist can put it all together and figure out WTF is wrong with me!

So... the next big appt is on the 29th, which also happens to be the first day of classes. All I can hope is that this qtr does not turn into the last. This last quarter I was very very lucky. I have no clue how, but I pulled off an A-. Nobody pulled off an A, which surprises me. This quarter wasn't exceptionally hard, but extremely busy with tons of projects. WHATEVER! It's done!! Why am I still thinking about it?! HA!!

So... I am pretty happy to say, it is spring break and you can damn well believe I'm going to enjoy it. Later peeps

Exam tomorrow!

So why am I on here? To procrastinate of course!! I must say, I'm sure scared for my clinical eval tomorrow. I've never been scared before (well scared because I think it's going to be bad scared). This quarter I just wasn't on my game! Having all these health problems and other personal drama just did not mix. I think if I didn't have all this health crap going on, then it would have just been like any other quarter... but having been told that I may need surgery up through my nose in around my brain is scary!!

No excuses though.. I'm doing well academically... I have a 88% in Theory (which is not good by my standards, but I'm shooting for a 90% by the end of this quarter) and who knows what in clinical.. I've got nothing lower than a 91 on all projects... so an A- ?

Don't you find it frustrating thought that when you take difficult instructors for the challenge, and others take the easy instructors, they end up with the higher grade? I know, it's not ALL about grades... yea yea


Okay... so I'm getting back to my studying... I just drank a cup of coffee and I'm thinking I've got another 2 hours of studying left in me : D

night ya'll

Some news..

So, my Endocrinologists' office woke me up this morning... which is good for 2 reasons. One, they gave me my lab result news. It's funny, I messed up by not taking the dexamethasone for the suppression test because they didn't explain the directions clear to me, so I had to retake the test. Well, that wasn't the funny part, but I had to go back for another lab slip and retake the test about 2 days later. They call me to tell my that my cortisol came back high, so I reminded the lady that I didn't take the dex and that she should prob tell the dr because the test is invalid. So she says she'll call me back.

Apparently the dr said that the level was still too high for being a standard level and wants me to continue on with the testing. SO what does this mean? More lab test.. Lucky me gets to do a 24 hr urine collection... SERIOUSLY? I get to put my pee into my fridge. What a total inconvenience!! I pretty much can't leave the house for an entire day. WTF. I really wish I could just be admitted for all this crap. Along with the pee, they want spit. I get to wake up at midnight and... SPIT IN A CUP. I swear, endocrine is some weird stuff.

So my dr still thinks it's Cushings... the part that I struggle with is that based on my research, my labs are in the upper normal range. I know I'm not a dr, but I like clear cut lines... and my case isn't clear cut. I think I should just leave the diagnosing to my dr...

Okay... back to studying

Patience is a...

Whoever said patience is a virtue must have not been a nursing student! Seriously... I have never been a patient person. If I want something, I get it. I want a new camera, I get a credit card and buy it. Apply to nursing school? Heck no I'm not waiting for a letter, I've got insiders to tell me I'm in much faster... And now, I've applied for some highly prestigious nursing scholarships and I'm dying to know who got them. Now, this is not a scenario where I'll get the inside scoop... and it kills me.

 Next thing is I took my big blood test. The one that will start the chain of tests to determine what kind of tumor (if any) I have. Now, I reallllyyy want to know the results! Like, now!

So, I sit here waiting... "patiently" trying to pass the time by occupying my mind with ATI, and finals, and exams.... being ever so patient, like the proper girl my mother taught me to be. HA!

And now, back to studying for my PEDS exam...

PS: this is a painting I painted... It seems appropriate for Peds : D

Adios kiddos!

Yesterday was officially our last day of Peds clinical!! What a horrible quarter! It's not the kids I didn't like, and I really got to liking my professor... but those horrific nurses!! I swear, yesterday I got ripped a new one for not knowing more than the side effects for an IV administration. It's not my fault I had 30 minutes to prepare for this patient... AND after she ripped me the new one, I looked in my Peds drug book and none of the info she was ripping me for was in there!! It was in the IV drug book... WTF!

It's difficult to learn in an environment where nurses treat you like bacteria on a sterile field. So, to the end of hell I say good riddance! Heres to hoping Psych next quarter will be infinitely better than Peds...

My favorite quote of all time: "Let the best of your past be the worst of your future" - unk author

doing good!!

So I must say, things are going well!! I finished that long care plan, after I threw a 2 year old temper tantrum... Then I survived last night, I missed my sleep for the sophomore orientation and had a decent night for not having slept!! I almost made it the whole night without sleep BUT my amazing charge nurse let me go home early. I did waste time yesterday buy purchasing my Canon DSLR Xsi!! So excited for this!! There was only a few left at costco so thank god I went yesterday!!

Today I was up a few hours early and finished one of my two nursing scholarships. I'm planning on working on the second one tonight... the second one is the one that's going to be difficult to write. It has a word limit with 4 main objectives to hit!!! Crazy! Well right now I have jumbalya cooking on the stove and it smells amazing!! So, I'm going to go finish that then get ready for work tonight... here's hoping for a few codes and some excitement!

Procrastination

What a horrible thing to do so close to the end of the quarter. Count down is 2 weeks until finals!! Not only finals but our last exam + final is in the same week!! Isn't that just cruel? Well I've been up and down, trying to deal with my recent dr visit plus the stress of a Long Care Plan while working part time and trying to be a sane person. Chances are something is going to go.

So I went to my dr a few months ago and one thing led to another and he thinks that I have a pituitary tumor. So I go to an endocrinologist who thinks I have cushings disease. GROSS. All I remember is from Med/Surg how nasty the picture of the cartoon guy with Cushings look. But I agree, I gained 30# in one year, plus other nasty changes. So my endocrinologist has a whole gamete of labs for me to do do exactly diagnose what I have. Exciting scary stuff if you ask me. So to add to this is the stress of school.

I need to get on top of things, get in buckle down mode, go balls out! Unfortunately I'm taking on more than I can chew again. Instead of sleeping in like I want to, I have to go to the new incoming class' orientation and speak as a junior representative. Like I'd rather be sleeping!! I work tomorrow night... It's going to be miserable. WHATEVER... so I better finish this damn long care plan so I can perhaps function tomorrow night... wish me luck

finally good

I think so far every day this quarter I have been un-happy. I have yet to wake up and feel good, or even look forward to the day. It's funny that I never noticed this before. Until yesterday... when I woke and felt good. It's the kind of good when you can take on anything, when you feel happy to go to lecture (Not a typo) and when driving even seems nicer. Feeling that way made me realize how unhappy I've been and hopefully how happy I can be from now on. I'm not sure what caused this... but I like it. I even went to the gym yesterday, which also made me feel good.

I guess I have to keep this up... well tonight I've got clinical and I'm so excited for my patient!! She's got chickypox!!! I'm not sure what it is about chickypox but I am sooo excited to take care of her! In fact, everyone in my clinical is super excited. Okay... well I think I'm going to go for a bike ride, then get ready for clinical... Hope you have a wonderful day!